There is always hope 

Strawberry Singh meme for this week…well  its  meme from her friend..and from his post all can see how amazing friend he is …before I make a mess with explaining things…read here  Berrywinters meme.

Its  kinda private meme but i dont mind..and no ..with my story i dont want that ppl be sorry or look at me like a victim..no I am not…I am normal (sometimes),happy person..with some shits in life…but all ppl have problems and for everyone their own problems are bigest…but there is always a hope…shity phrase but tru….I wana say that… sometimes  you  fall down and touch bottom but you must find hope,faith.love ,strenght …get up and move…coz there are many falls in life…and I know that end of love(relationship) can hurt..and somethimes that looks like end of the world…but time will heal everything(another shity phrase I know)and good friends.

Ok i wrote a book…now my story…I am not sure about what part of my life to write..I will try to be short.

When I was 17 years old my mother died from cancer on my hands…she had 47 years…now i have 37 and i think about her every day of my life..I miss her…so I stay at home to take care of my father who had schizophrenia..I didnt have computer then and internet…I dont want to make this story too long and I will said that in that 2 years of my life I touch bottom of life ..I am not person who cry ..I make shits when I feel bad.wrong.men..wrong relatshionships….in that black time of my life….my best friend help me to get up..well her mother find me a job(and I still work there)..i still remember her words:“If you have kid …do you want that she/he have life like yours in case that something happens to you ?“I get up and move..start to work ..have some relationships ….love some man..some loved me…I was hurt…and bla bla…but I think that i am little hendicapped in „love stuff“…its funny and strange that Second life learn me to show my emotions.

Then after 3 years relatshionship I get merry and I got beautiful daughter..well that marriage was wrong but my daughter is my straingh now.My father died before 5 years but I survive…you look everything with different eyes when you have reason to live.

Next chapter  in my life…before 1,5 years i got cancer…surgery…chemotherapy…radiotherapy..and i am still here…I cry just that day when doctors told me that I have cancer..I go out…sit on stairs ….and call my best friend (that friend from childhood)…and after 30 min I was ready to fight…and to win…and I survive…and what If cancer comes back…yes sometimes I think about that….who cares I will eat him  again🙂

My strenght,my hope,my love and my reason to live is my daughter.I dont have many things in my life…but i have enough…I have her..I have my best friend….maybe I dont have Rl love…but that will happen one day…hope dies last 😛

Now when i read what I wrote..maybe is too much..SL is not place to share private things…but on other way..maybe this story will help someone..to see that…when you think that everything is black…and when you dont see the way out..remember that always can be worst..find your strenght in friends…family…get up and move on….tommorow is another day (Ok ..on the end of post i become Scarlett O*Hara …Eeeeek..time to log in in SL for some shoping therapy)

Btw..for this post i will use one picture which i use before on some other post…coz I think that is perfect for this story!

Have a great evening!

Love-Faith-Hope

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2 thoughts on “ There is always hope 

  1. Lana, a really stunning photo to match a heartfelt post. You have said it all. Life throws at us some real shit sometimes, and you have to chuck things back harder and faster. If a person has true friends and love in their life nothing is able to beat you, nothing. Friends and love are everything. Thanks for sharing your story, a stunning blog entry xxxxxxxxxx

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